Saturday, March 5, 2011

Muffled Memory

It's amazing how my muffled memories can be so powerful.  Certain emotions, situations, and senses can illicit an uncanny reminder of pleasant and not-so-pleasant experiences that I might not be able to recall should I really want to.  How difficult to push past poignant recollections of tense tribulations, especially!  Sometimes, I wish my memory were embedded with its own off switch.  But, alas, 'tis not so.

And yet, flipping through our family's annual photo books yields beautiful re-encounters with little blessings we savored throughout the year - such as a day trip hiking or the birth of a son or celebrating a birthday or even just a first haircut for the boys.  How could I forget such seemingly memorable joys, when the more despairing memories surface from my cloudy mind almost readily?

Friend, do you find your mind wandering away from the joys in life, too?  Do you dwell on the hardships?  Let's try to remind ourselves that beyond those hardships are scintillating stars more beautiful than diamonds and just waiting for us to roll back our shoulders, lift our heads high, and smile once again to refocus ourselves.

1 comment:

  1. It is hard, isn't it? On my way to work today, I found myself recounting my motivations over the past 5 years, related to certain events, and found myself reliving painful memories that, though momentarily forgotten, sometimes color my present more vibrantly than I would like to admit. How sad! Why can't the little joys of the moment - and I say little when in reality they are more important -- so overpower the pain of times so far in the past that recovery from it is easy? Why did watching the way that people negatively interact with those I love so tarnish my feelings about life that I have a hard time enjoying my youngest son's waddle and smile as he moves across the room?

    It's not fair -- life, I suppose, as the old cliche tells us. But, I'm tired of that!


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